Love you Vanessa

There was a time where you and me were inseparable. The packaged deal. We introduced each other to our friends and we went everywhere together. We were so in sync we'd finished one another's sentences recounting all the crazy shit we did together.

I wish I could go back and tell you I'm sorry. I wish things had ended on different terms and that I could have hugged you and we could have spent more time together in the end. I'm sorry for being a chicken and not being able to make things better.

I feel bad even posting anything on social media because who cares what everyone else thinks and why do they have to know anything. It has been so nice seeing how many lives you affected though. People thought you were the funniest and wildest Italiano out there. Your waddles, your laugh, your stories, and your desire to be loved. Everyone loved your adventures. Everyone loved your presence. There is truly a hole in this world where you were supposed to be.

But listen...you did accomplish so much. You lived a life to remember as the AVICII song goes. You travelled the world, you fell in love, you cared for your family, and you had the most fun life that someone could ask for. I think it's terrible it got cut so short because there was so much more you were supposed to do in this world. This is not something that I think I will ever be able to understand, but I love you so much and I know that you're not gone forever and that your memory is so strong. This is fucked up. I don't think the world will ever be ok, but thank you for being in my life when you were. I'm sorry I never had the chance to say I wish we didn't part ways. You literally made my life interesting. We had the best time together.

We won't ever forget you. We won't ever stop loving you. We don't ever stop remembering you.