Now for something completely different

I'm going through a phase and I think I need to ride it out. There are parts of me that want to be dead to be gone. I keep trying to nurture the wrong parts of myself to hold on to that past, but I think I'm finally ready to move on.

I no longer want to drink, I don't want to party. I want to focus on travel, quality friendships, my friendships, my dog, and me.

I always said I was trying to fill a void, but I think now it was less so that and more trying to hold on to a part of me that was never made to be. I'm not who I used to be and my body/mind physically tries to tell me that. And I IGNORE IT. I am thankful for the number of chances I was given.

I don't know exactly where I'm going and finding identity within this time struggling.

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